Anxiety comes at me like a flood.
Uncontrollable. Sudden. Unwelcomed.
Be anxious for nothing...
Be. Anxious. For. Nothing.
But in everything by prayer and supplication...
With Prayer.
And Supplication
Supplication: an intensity of earnestness in prayer - extended prayer - not to gain merit - but to fully transfer...
...Fully Transfer...
the burden of my soul into Gods hands.
With thanksgiving..
always with thanksgiving; a heart full of praise, a heart that freely worships, dances naked in the streets before the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords - with thanksgiving.
Let your requests be made known to God. And the peace...
the peace that is only found in the ever-embracing arms of true love
The peace of God which surpasses all understanding...
Repeat...all. all. ALL!
All understanding, will guard your heart and mind through Christ Jesus.
Thank you, Jesus. That you not only see and know, but you guard. Stand guard over this heart and mind as I let my requests be known to you with earnestness and praise.
(Philippians 4:6-7)
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Truth Infused
IV Therapy. It's what people are given when consuming a medication or fluids orally just isn't fast enough. When the concerns are dire and situation immediate.
Today, I feel my "eating" of the Word just isn't fast enough. I need an infusion of His truth today. An immediate dose of truth to the in most parts of this hormonally permeated spirit. Wisdom, truth, life that outranks and crushes the swirl of uncertainty that can so quickly blind, if allowed.
I reason with myself. I speak worldly realities. I remind myself. But it is only when I speak the truth, His Truth, over my restless spirit that peace exudes. Only then, that the heart is captured and overwhelmed by this great God who knows, who loves, who see, and who answers.
He has already answered, in fact. Infuse my spirit, Lord, that I may rest in perfect peace.
"You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You." Isaiah 26:3
Today, I feel my "eating" of the Word just isn't fast enough. I need an infusion of His truth today. An immediate dose of truth to the in most parts of this hormonally permeated spirit. Wisdom, truth, life that outranks and crushes the swirl of uncertainty that can so quickly blind, if allowed.
I reason with myself. I speak worldly realities. I remind myself. But it is only when I speak the truth, His Truth, over my restless spirit that peace exudes. Only then, that the heart is captured and overwhelmed by this great God who knows, who loves, who see, and who answers.
He has already answered, in fact. Infuse my spirit, Lord, that I may rest in perfect peace.
"You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You." Isaiah 26:3
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Anxiety resolved
In my new position as the manager of our Starbucks here in Brenham, I am finding that my mind is consistently and unwelcomingly drawn to work. Gone are the days of leaving work at work...it follows me like body odor. Don't get me wrong, I am certain that once I get settled into this new position, it will be a phenomenal fit and I will love running a business. But for now, I am filled and haunted by a thousand "immediate" needs.
I'm making dinner for my husband and thinking about when my next supervisor meeting is and all I need to do to get that agenda ready. I'm driving to a friends house remembering that I forgot to tell the crew to do something before I left the store (and wondering if it is really important enough to call them about it). I'm getting ready in the morning and pondering how I can better deploy our partners to make the store run more efficiently. I'm trying to divert my mind onto something else, like a new book, and find that apparently I have two brains because one is focusing on the book while the other is still spinning over why in the world my district manager would make the decision he did.
My initial response is to get overwhelmed and to run away. Just disappear from life. High tail it out of here. Walk into the lake and never come back. Start driving into the sunset and start over somewhere else. Now don't get alarmed. I feel this way pretty frequently when I'm overwhelmed and anxiety stricken, and the most I've run is to literally go for a run or go for a drive (which after about 30 minutes, I'm tired of and wish I didn't have to get myself back to point A. ;o)
The anxiety sometimes is overwhelming; I just focus on breathing deep and slowing myself down. But then I sink into this exhausted slump. It's as if the anxiety has completely drained me and I don't know whether to go run or go to sleep.
On nights like tonight when I have reached my limit, I finally turn on Pandora, put on Dave's Bose headphones (that block out EVERYTHING and completely engross you in amazing sound, slight commercial there...) and I worship at the top of my lungs. I sing harmony for Darlene Zschech until my throat hurts. Tonight, Hillsong United and "Came to My Rescue" broke the stalemate in my mind and spirit.
I called You answered
And You came to my rescue and I
Want to be where you are.
In my life be lifted high
In my world be lifted high
In my love be lifted high
I want to draw close to the Lord, to the mercy, grace and peace that He alone can bring to the depths of where I am. My heart wants Jesus. Jesus alone. Ours is a relationship I am learning to embrace. A man I am getting to know in a new way. And though my intellect tells me I should just hand him my heart without reservation, my spirit is just beginning to allow him to touch the pieces of who I really am.
I'm making dinner for my husband and thinking about when my next supervisor meeting is and all I need to do to get that agenda ready. I'm driving to a friends house remembering that I forgot to tell the crew to do something before I left the store (and wondering if it is really important enough to call them about it). I'm getting ready in the morning and pondering how I can better deploy our partners to make the store run more efficiently. I'm trying to divert my mind onto something else, like a new book, and find that apparently I have two brains because one is focusing on the book while the other is still spinning over why in the world my district manager would make the decision he did.
My initial response is to get overwhelmed and to run away. Just disappear from life. High tail it out of here. Walk into the lake and never come back. Start driving into the sunset and start over somewhere else. Now don't get alarmed. I feel this way pretty frequently when I'm overwhelmed and anxiety stricken, and the most I've run is to literally go for a run or go for a drive (which after about 30 minutes, I'm tired of and wish I didn't have to get myself back to point A. ;o)
The anxiety sometimes is overwhelming; I just focus on breathing deep and slowing myself down. But then I sink into this exhausted slump. It's as if the anxiety has completely drained me and I don't know whether to go run or go to sleep.
On nights like tonight when I have reached my limit, I finally turn on Pandora, put on Dave's Bose headphones (that block out EVERYTHING and completely engross you in amazing sound, slight commercial there...) and I worship at the top of my lungs. I sing harmony for Darlene Zschech until my throat hurts. Tonight, Hillsong United and "Came to My Rescue" broke the stalemate in my mind and spirit.
I called You answered
And You came to my rescue and I
Want to be where you are.
In my life be lifted high
In my world be lifted high
In my love be lifted high
I want to draw close to the Lord, to the mercy, grace and peace that He alone can bring to the depths of where I am. My heart wants Jesus. Jesus alone. Ours is a relationship I am learning to embrace. A man I am getting to know in a new way. And though my intellect tells me I should just hand him my heart without reservation, my spirit is just beginning to allow him to touch the pieces of who I really am.
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